Yesterday was a weird day for me. In fact, up until about 9pm last night, the previous 24 hours had been weird for me.
I've learned that when there are stressors in my life, I don't deal well with them at all. Actually, I deal with them, but not in a healthy way. I tend to take my stress out on others in various forms because I can't handle the interruptions in my otherwise-semi-structured day.
I want to grab onto what's familiar and feels safe, and yet, I end up driving those comforts away just as quickly as I've grabbed onto them.
If you ever wanted to know more about just how our brains work, check out a book called I Hate You...Don't Leave Me. It's been extremely eye-opening for me, and although the turmoil has calmed down for the moment, therapy can't come fast enough.
Until my next appointment, I am absorbing as much as I can things on mindfulness, calm, relaxation, and focusing the mind. I am considering taking martial arts of some sort, too, as I have heard that is an excellent option along with possibly Yoga and Pilates.
-s-
2 comments:
Great book, I've read it myself. Praying for you!
I can't wait to read it after Angie is finished with it. I want to better understand what my baby is going through, and, possibly, learn more about myself in the process
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